Ahh thankyou Mamyalynne, well I went in and see the specialist on friday and she said the lady that examined me on monday with colposcopy, was concerned it wasnt mild cell change as it said on my smear, but severe....I ended up in tears, anyway she examined me herself and said she didnt actually think it looked that bad, but couldnt be 100% till the results come back in 4-6 weeks. The injected me 3-4 times with local anesthetic and it didnt work, so I felt the entire process (felt like I was in a torture chamber) it was horrendous to be honest,, she was going to stop and refer me to be put to sleep, but I told her to do it as I wanted it gone and didnt want to leave it any longer than necessary.....to be honest with you, I am so scared waiting for the results, ive been quite depressed over it, ive read things on the net and its made me feel worse, trying to keep busy so im not dwelling on it you know. Thanks for remembering, what a sweetie xxx