Apologies,
I have had one too many G&T's tonight.
It is my(late) Mum's birthday.
Whilst she was a loving and kind person,she ignored(but knew about) 18 years of my Father physically & mentally abusing me(Ileft home at 18)
So I get drunk to try and forget the bad part of her,and rmember only the good.
Does it work?
Not really.
See you again when I am sober.