China, When someone is at the point of suicide they do not, cannot think of anyone else, it is such a dark place to be, when I say "cannot" I mean "cannot" not "don't want to" its the state of the brain in shutdown, it isn't working like a normal brain. The brain has been compromised by stress, fear, love and in a state that we will never understand unless we have been there. China, if you read some of these other posts it will help to give you a clearer understanding I'm sure.