Weird problem... lol

[Bobbi21kay]

Ok, so I have an EXTREME hatred for marijuana. I don't know why! I started hating it when I dated my first boyfriend... but that was years ago! And it affects all my relationships now... because for some reason I can't find a guy who isn't a pothead! And then I try my best to be okay with it. I research it, I rationalize it in my mind, hell, sometimes I even smoke it! I just don't really enjoy it, and I don't understand how other people feel when they do enjoy it, so I find it hard to talk to someone who's high. I logically know that alcohol is worse, but yet I love to drink, and have no problem with people who drink. It's gotten to the point where I can't hear a song, watch a movie, hear someone mention something that relates to marijuana in any way, shape or form. Whenever it becomes a topic in my life, I feel very anxious and panicky. Some of my FAVORITE movies I can't even stand to watch anymore because of this increasing hatred. (Dazed and Confused... I LOVE(D) that movie!) And I can spend HOURS literally, feeling sick to my stomach and trying to imagine how other people feel when they're high, so that I can justify their reasons and be okay with it. I just want to be free of this obsessive hatred! Any advice?! lol PLEASE don't answer if you're just going to make me feel stupid... because believe me, I KNOW how dumb this is or I wouldn't be writing this right now :P

[ummmm]

<hell, sometimes I even smoke it! >

I stopped reading after that bit....because you obviously don't hate it that much.

[sandyRoe]

Are you under its influence now?

[Bobbi21kay]

I only smoke it to try to be okay with it... if that makes sense. Because I would like to know why it's such a thrill for some people. And sometimes it feels like the only way I'll understand is if I feel that thrill just once. Believe me, I DO hate it!!

[Bobbi21kay]

No, I am not high lol. I'm just an unusual person.

[snags]

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[ummmm]

It's not a thrill. If they wanted a thrill they'd be dropping acid.

[Bobbi21kay]

It just seems to be such a priority in a lot of people's lives. I know Alcohol is worse... but most of the drinkers I know (not all of them) drink only on weekends or special occasions. Most of the potheads I know (again, not all of them) smoke on a daily basis.

[ummmm]

And for some marijuana is worse.

[Bobbi21kay]

Yeah... I know the facts on both. I just need to quit dwelling on things I'll never understand I guess... easier said than done. I have major anxiety issues :o lol.

[Hopkirk]

You must be looking in the wrong place if all the guys you meet are potheads.

[Bobbi21kay]

I literally can't even name a guy that doesn't smoke pot, besides family members lol. I am not exaggerating :/

[Bobbi21kay]

So none of you have ever been obsessed/ and or dwelled on something? What I want to know is how to stop thinking about it so much in a negative way...? Nobody can relate? ... I feel so... alone :P

[B00]

"because for some reason I can't find a guy who isn't a pothead!"

Move to a better location where the local talent is relatively normal?

[redcrx]

"I literally can't even name a guy that doesn't smoke pot" so all your work colleagues / neighbours etc all do pot?

[cazzz1975]

you are probably picking the same types of men all the time, try moving in different social circles where you can meet different types of people.

[Bobbi21kay]

I don't know any of my neighbors lol.

[Rapunzel61]

I was going to suggest you change your circle of friends, there are some sensible people out there that aren't interested in drugs.