I read this post and felt like crying, mik as the others have said, you aren't alone with these perfectly normal feelings, it is a cliche we all use that life goes on but for the person(s) concerned, it stands still on each waking moment, my Dad also died in Wales, in Anglesey, he had a good life and was in his early 80s, my Mum passed away when I was just 24, I was pregnant at that time so she never held her grandchild in her arms, I miss them today and everyday and always will, take care mm, my thoughts are with you and your wife x