Propanolol again

[tinkerbell23]

Remember at bank hol weekend i said i would run out and needed a prescription...

And the receptionist said id have to come in as the do wouldnt give withouse seeing me...even though they eventually did..

Called again today as i only have tomorrows left- the box lasts two blinkin weeks thats all!! And she said NO you have to come in so now i have an app on thur- at this rate ill be trapesing to the doc every blinkin fortnight!????

We had a chat about it all last time im just still totally baffled why this drug is so tightly controlled. Why not just gimme a repeat!! X

[rowanwitch]

guidelines for mental health is weekly until sure no risk of self harm then two weekly etc I had my GP giving me 2 days dose at a time for a while and I had to phone in on the days in between

[tinkerbell23]

Really? Wow. Never knew that! He did me tuo. Suicide etc- im waaaaaay to scared of dying to do anything like that!!!

Its just so unlike me. Im probobly a loud character- bubbly chatty- the friends ive confided in are just shocked im like this! It will get better im sure. Soon hopefully!!! ;0> xxx

[ronnietoon]

thanks for that rowanwitch i couldnt understand it and never had it explained to me by my gp.

tinkerbell this is a new account of mine do to a comment made by someone regarding mental health problems on one of your previous threads.

i think their comment was along the lines of telling you to pull yourself together.

i responded hastily and angrily

it is a fact that 1 in 4 people suffer some form of mental health problems at some point of their life.

too which i replied angrily

please dont report me for this lol as this is one of the best websites for honest decent answers

[ronnietoon]

ignore the 6th line of my last post i accidently repeated myself

[rowanwitch]

plenty of outwardly bubbly chatty people suffer from depression.... its sometimes a coping mechanism generally I don't seem depressed in the early stages but I do try too hard to be a funny and friendly... also a really risky time is when the tablets start to 'kick in' someone who has been too low and apathetic to do anything silly may feel they have the wherewithal to try hence the frequent visits to GP and why after many many years of treatment I still get asked every time if I have had any thoughts of hurting myself or suicide...

[ronnietoon]

look at the late gary speed rowan

[rowanwitch]

Exactly,..... outwardly coping just fine...and there are many many more

[tinkerbell23]

I rember that comment i was pretty rude back LOL we are all allowed to loose the rag eh ;0>

True- it may well be- i seem to take others problems on and dont get much in return so i stopped that a few months ago and boy do i feel better!!!

And hoping as things pick up i will too!? Jobs etc. its difficult and i miss caring for others- xxx

[tinkerbell23]

Also lucky to hve found here and have REALLY sympathetic and supportive pals- one who has her degree in something with counselling...xx

[rowanwitch]

Tinkerbell.... why not take some time to care for yourself instead..... I don't meen fancy nail products or the latest skin care either... I mean eating healthy stuff, getting exercise out doors when you can, and maybe finding something among your hobbies to concentrate on... and sort out your sleeping arrangements... or I will send Redman over to confiscate your mobile

[tinkerbell23]

Ive been trying to eat better, got some vitamins, been to gym...could get OUT to exercise more...take pablo along too. I always make sure i have a nice bath at night..been enjoying spending time with new man...dot feel as bad when im not myself LOL!!!!

Ooooh no redman! Not the mobile!!!! Ordered some
Lavender oil yesterday too as recommended!!! I promise ill take care xxx

[rowanwitch]

OMG I'm turning into my mother....

[tinkerbell23]

No you are not !! Hahah

I hope i never!! Thats a whoooole other thread ;0) xx

[rowanwitch]

I think we could swap mother stories for a long time but thats a two jugs of margaritas session... and I have an advantage? I've had mine a lot longer...

[tinkerbell23]

That is very true.....once i learn how to "deal" with her and some old problemos.....im hoping ill feel amazing xx

[rowanwitch]

The biggest revelation I had was understanding the cr@p when I was young was not my fault...she was a poor parent I was not a bad child and I didn't have to spend the rest of my life trying to make her proud of me.

[tinkerbell23]

Very wise words. I dont feel the need to make her proud but i am aware of her influence still if tht makes sense....still live under her roof for now so only so much i can do!!! When its good its fine when its bad its awful...

But once i deal with my feelings and resentment i hope it will be better! X

[rowanwitch]

You'll get there despite being young you have the insight to know your life could be better if you deal with the bad stuff...it takes time though

[tinkerbell23]

It keeps me going to think that i can make the changes and i think i can. I dont want to keep feeling the way i do and cause the anxiety! Im telling myself its a phase and in a while ill be fine.

Thanks for the chat rowan you are so lovely and understanding xxx

[rowanwitch]

You are welcome now find someone your own age to play with.... old ladies like me need their rest...