Zacs - if you're adopted and you don't know your birth family, there is a huge hole inside you and you're always wondering. The worst day is your birthday because you wonder if you're real mum is thinking of you.
I found my birth family ten years ago and it was the best thing I ever did. I only wish my adoptive mother had not been so selfish and helped me a lot earlier in life, instead of leaving it until I was 57. I never did meet my birth mum, she died a couple of days after she was traced, but she admitted that she had given me away, so I wasn't rejected again. , but I now have six brothers and sisters, which is wonderful.