I cried for the first time tonight in many years

[Justice13]

I was watching "Exposure" on itv1 about Banaz Mahmoud's so called "Honor killing"

http://www.google.co....1534&biw=1366&bih=667

It was really sad. I've been battling mental illness for many years and planned to kill myself this saturday after a long and hard struggle with "Life" which i hated, but this sad story has given me a reason to live as although this story doesn't mean anything to me on a personal level, it has given me a new understanding of lifes preciousness and i want to now use my time, money and resources in helping people in a similar situation.

Banaz Mahmod, r.i.p darling, in a weird twist of fate, your death his given another person life.

[lady-janine]

i didn't see the programme but it sounds very sad. how safe is her sister? what a great tragedy.

so pleased to helped with your problems. you can be very focused now thank goodness.

all best wishes.

[lady-janine]

silly not to have done my usual check. but i stand by my words. it was a very sad thing to have happened.

[Justice13]

Thank you for your kind words and it truly is one of the saddest stories that i've ever came across.

Ladyjanine i didn't understand this

//silly not to have done my usual check.//

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[Jemisa]

Bless you sweetheart I'm so glad you're feeling better. I'm sure your post already has helped many people. :)

Jem

[deggers316]

i thought one of the worst parts was when she said to the police woman "now ive given you a statement,what can you do for me" well what she got was nothing! and the most harrowing was the read out of her killing i felt sick

[Baldric]

I look forward to reading of your charitable acts in the future,
and welcome to AB!

[pizza]

You will always have someone to talk to on AB,whenever you are feeling down or lost get on here, this site has some amazing people that although you never meet it's a great support for all.
All the best and don't give up life is too precious.
I hope you do start to enjoy life and helping others gives you the purpose you need.

[maggiebee]

Hi there Justice, sounds like you've been in a very dark place for a long time. I'm glad watching this programme (which I didn't see) has given you a reason to live. We all have hidden reserves and sometimes it takes a tragedy to focus our thoughts on reasons for living rather than for dying. Hope sharing has helped a little and look forward to further posts from you.