how to stop myself?...it's really hard

[babypeppie]

i have bulimia. i binge and purge 1-2 times a day. at some point i stopped but a week later i started again. im 59 kg and really want to lose another 10kg. my mum is constantly telling me that she thinks i should stop all these diets (she thinks that im on a diet) but my dad tells me that if i lose 2-3 kg i would look really good. im 170cm and really want to get into modeling. im considered pretty tall for my age and people have told me that i could be a good model but i want to lose weight before i contact a modeling agency. the problem is that i can't controll myself when it comes to binging and after that i feel so guilty i purge and use laxatives (i usually overdose on them to make sure that they will work). it's quite a depressing life but evan though im losing weight by what im doing i constantly feel tired and my whole upper body feels bruised. how can i stop? every time i look in the miron i see myself getting fatter (my weight is decreasing though) and i immediately stuff myself so i can manage to vomit out all i have eaten. today after binging i didn't purge and i feel so guilty. the guilt is so great that i keep having suicidal thoughts. i can't go to a psycologist bacause i will need an adult to make the apointment and stuff and if i went to my school psycologist he would tell my mother 100%. how can i help myself? i feel really bad.

[angiealf]

Baby you have got to talk to someone - you can't do this alone. Contact your school counselor pleeeaaassse. Have you a close older friend who you can confide in?, after talking to them you may feel ready to talk to your parents. Your GP even maybe able to help with contacting the right people.

[pastafreak]

Youu really need to get some help for yourself,hun. if you feel as bad physically as you say-then what you are doing is already taking a terrible toll on your body. Your senses of self,and your body image are all out of proportion to what you really are. If you continue in this way-you will have serious health problems-in fact you may do already. Forget the modelling for the time being,and get yourself taken care of.It won't be long before you mum DOES realise that this is NOT a diet that you are subjecting yourself to-but a kind of self-abuse.

[ACtheTROLL]

>>>Baby you have got to talk to someone
so true
>>>my dad tells me that if i lose 2-3 kg
make sure it's not your dad

[ummmm]

This can rot your teeth. So your quest to being thin could make you UGLY.

[pastafreak]

Now I am not sure I should have bothered with my answer,as I see baby's thread from yesterday where she asks how to become anorexic,is gone.

baby-I really hope this is not a wind-up,because a lot of people will take this seriously,and go to great lengths to put you in the right direction-if only because they are concerned for your welfare. To take advantage of peoples good nature is to abuse what this topic is for......real people with real problems.

[babypeppie]

yesturdays question was a bit stupid. my friend is very very overweight and she asked me how she can lose weight REALLY fast and i told her to become anorexic for a joke. after that she made me ask but now im totally serious. btw sorry for my spelling.

[hc4361]

If you really felt that bad about your body you would not be posting photos of yourself in skimpy clothes.
You're on a wind up.

[babypeppie]

what skimpy clothes?

[hc4361]

Short mini skirt and nothing else.
Short shorts and crop top.

[babypeppie]

omg. no one was ever meant to see those. oops.

[babypeppie]

ok...sorry. i removed them.

[hc4361]

People with the sort of probs you claim to have cover up in baggy clothes to hide their bodies.
You're a look at me attention seeker.

[Nosha123]

I knew someone once with Bulimia....

She was actually quite fat.. but the Bulimia gave her really bad spots too.. so she then developed issues about her looks as her skin was so horrible.

You might want to rethink your next purge.... your teeth go rotten too.. oh not just yet - but a while later then you'll need false teeth too!

Thats if a heart attack doesnt get you first....

Ad as for modelling - forget it.... a whole world full of competitive thin models all out-purging each other to be the thinnest.... a REALLY miserable existence.

Get some brains and realise its not all about looks. Get a grip

[SuDFB]

so f*cking sad...