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[phleb]

I moved back into my own room tonight, after 2 months. i cannot sleep, panic attacks, hence i'm sat here. Every time i sleep in that bedroom i think of my mum and what if something happens to her. i start to panic and quietly come downstairs. I wont tell my husband this because he wont listen and thinks i'm being dramatic. I slept in my kids bedroom for last two months and have had no panic attacks. Why is this happening? my bedroom has no links to my mum, and my mum is in her own house and she is fine, although has had a rough year with being poorly, but nothing overly serious. I just cant understand what to do, i only have 2 bedrooms so i cant even swap and change.

[pixie373]

How old is the baby, phleb? It could be an onset of postnatal depression if she's under a year. See your doctor asap. It's horrible, but easily treated. It's general stress and anxiety and nothing to do with your mum. That's just a symptom xx

[pixie373]

Looking back through your posts, she's about 7 months? That's when mine was eventually diagnosed. Very treatable, though. Until then, keep a paper bag in the bedroom and breathe in and out of it if you feel panicky. Try just sitting in there or reading before you try to sleep xx

[waterboatman]

phleb I'm so sorry to see you going through this. Your husband should be the one helping and supporting you. You're not being 'dramatic'. You have a clinical condition and I advise you to see your GP as soon as possible. In the meantime have a look at the websites shown by the lovely people on here. I can add nothing to what has been said other than that.

I wish you well and hope you find the peace you deserve. But you must seek help. you've made a start by posting on here. The next step is to see your GP soonest. xxxxx

[janbee]

You can always talk to us here on the AB. You have MANY AB friends but PLEASE, talk to your GP first. We are all always here as a back up but PLEASE ask your GP about your fears. xx Let us know how it goes. ok?

[phleb]

My Polly is 7 months old. It might be post natal depression, but i'm fine most of the time though and perfectly normal, its just at bedtime.

I have started to clean the house top to bottom every day, i use dettol and bleach so kids don't catch ebola, how bad is that. I am obsessed with the cleaning.

I woke up so many times last night to check on Polly as it was her first night in a cot, i normally have her with me, i missed her cuddles last night. She had to go into her new cot eventually :( like my husband says, maybe i do need to get a grip!!

i read before bed to relax me. I have taken note of the websites and information you have all given me, thank you. I will look into these and also speak to doctor this week.

I never see health Visitor as they come every fortnight to surgery and its such a long wait i don't bother anymore, i am always rushed out and feel they have no time to listen. You lovely people have been a tremendous support to me over the months and all the time i have been on here and needed you. thank you thank you thank you xxxx

[Mamyalynne]

Never any shortage of people who understand and are ready to talk here Phleb as you know.

[pixie373]

Your second paragraph shows it isn't just at bedtime. You will be fine, but see your doctor asap xx

[murraymints]

phleb....you WILL get better this is not uncommon , unfortunately you are reinforcing an irrational fear and your anxiety is spiralling out of control..your GP wil be able to help also perhaps try listening to some relaxation tapes or discs in bed....hope you feel brighter soon xx

[phleb]

thank you murraymints. x