Change In Mood- Poor Sleep.

[tinkerbell23]

Those who know me will remember the terrible anxiety i used to suffer... And most recently depression..

I am the most unlikely person to have this...

Ive had all the usual helpless answers like "what have you got to be depressed about, snap out of it, you are pretending" etc etc

Ive done really really well ... Anxiety is much much better except from
The few nocturnal panic attacks which are increasing lately- the past three nights ive been having the most awful awful nightmares (this is new) and i cant sleep afterwards- even when i do sleep its been a nap thts resulted in a nightmare....

My mood is quite low - i dont take anything except beta blockers- finished antidepressants ages ago. Im teary and exhausted and feeling lonely.

I know i have a nice life i feel bad for feeling like this i cant help it. Im working away and life is good...

I have a friends wedding looming in a few wks... When it was her hen a while back i cried all day, i feel really self conscious especially when im with my friends... Theyre slim gorgeous -everything and im already dreading standing next to them all.... Mr Tinks isnt the most sympathetic. I mentioned it tonight how im dreading it, ive booked my makeup to be done to try to help..

He is more of a "if thats how you feel only you can fix it" type.... I know that aswell.

I dont have a question really i just fancied a chat.... Sometimes i dont want to burden those around me or come across as ungreatfull or a drag... Im a happy outgoing person really!!!! Xx

[pixie374]

Me too, except I don't have a wife :-). Mental health services are horrendous. You have to look after yourself, or there's no chance.

[tinkerbell23]

Sometimes im a bit embarrased or ashamed... Then i get defiant and im mostly quite open about how i am or how ive been... But as i said not alot of people around me understand... Good , great people but ignorant...

Xx

[pixie374]

It's hard to explain, isn't it, tinks? It doesn't sound logical, but there are a lot of people here who know exactly what you mean. Certainly nothing to be embarrassed about...any more than a broken leg is xx

[tinkerbell23]

Thats one of the best things someone said to me! A friend who understood said its the same as a broken leg and it needs time to heal... Ill never forget her for that!!!

Pixie thank you u r a doll for listening.
Mabye ill feel better when this period arrives too thats over two weeks now. Annoying me!! X

[pixie374]

Erm....are you sure it's just late? Always nice to talk to you xx

[Gavmacp]

I would try a hypnotherapy script there are plenty on YouTube to see how susceptible you are to it. Listen to it awake and conscious to see if there is anything that could drag up bad memories first. I haven't found any that for me were damaging but you never know so be careful.
Unfortunately there are a lot of therapists that think they are magicians and are the dogs b****** but are useless.
Maybe try Paul Mackenna stuff also available on iTunes.
My friend did mindfulness which I think she said was okay but doesn't rant about it.

[Gavmacp]

Tinks,
Is that you in your avatar (if that is what it is called)?
Sorry for not being PC but may I say Foxy Lady!!!!

[tinkerbell23]

Pixie i have tested a few times all negative... Its strange !!

Yes thats me thank you G hahaha!! Thats my wedding in Sept..

I duno if id like mindfulness or not i do have apps ill use!!

Chatting here has helped ....

[pixie374]

Maybe from the coil then. You know where we are....xx

[Bathsheba]

Hi Tinks.
If you were a diabetic, you would take insulin, yeah?
If you have a chemical imbalance in your brain, where I believe anxiety and depression originates, and there are certain meds which can help, antidepressants (not happy pills, it makes really angry to see or hear them called that) then it makes sense to take them.

I strongly advise you to go and see your GP asap...and don't be satisfied with your name put on a list for CBT .....a waste of time.

Good luck, be happy, and keep us updated :)

Baths
x x x

[pixie374]

"Happy pills" is pure ignorance. They're calming, not stimulating, anyway.

[Bathsheba]

http://www.upworthy.com/stephen-frys-description-of-his-depression-is-perfect-because-it-is-100-honest

I hope this helps you, tinkerbell x x

[tinkerbell23]

Thank you Baths - im in bed & i will read your link just now! Hoping i get a restfull sleep for work tomo! Monday is always super busy! Xx

[anneasquith]

No pixie. It was not pure ignorant. I've kept in mind tink is a nurse and Scottish. Please don't be so judgemental. .

[tinkerbell23]

Sometimes i jokingly refer to them as happy tabs when im talking about them to friends so dont worry.

X

[Mamyalynne]

Years ago they were tagged 'Mother's little helpers', you do have to keep a sense of humour , hard though it is.

I've been on a low dose for 6 years and I am level, not hyper , not up - still get down days , but who doesn't?

I stopped worrying about any dependence a good while back.

[Gavmacp]

Goodnight Tinks (my very foxy lady!)!
Mr Tinks may not be supportive because as a man we don't do that sort of thing, you know like talk about our feelings. We can fix this or that, put up or take down this or that, make or break this or that but feeeeellllings NO we don't/can't do that!

[anneasquith]

Sorry if I upset you tinks. Was not my intention. Take care.

[tinkerbell23]

You absolutey didnt anne not at all... I keep a sense of humor i call them & myself all number of things lol!!!

Ill see how i am by friday.... I still have a box here but ill hang back for now & go for a review.

Thanks again!! Ill get my foxy self to bed lol... Mr tinks been called to work xx :0(

[Mamyalynne]

Don't be hard on yourself and take a day at a time and remember getting help, whatever it is - is not a sign of weakness.

Night sweetheart.x