Suicidal Thoughts

[Ripley58]

I experienced a psychotic episode last year and began hearing voices. I am also taking anti-depressants, but for the first time I have begun to feel suicidal. My mother has recently entered a home because she is suffering from dementia, my best friend is very seriously ill and my brother and I are no longer communicating. I do not have close family or friends to call upon and sadly I've never been popular and able to mix with people comfortably. At 50, the sense of loneliness and despair is all engulfing and I feel it's all too much and that my life and future prospects are never going to improve. I accept I sound like a self obsessed whinger, but I'm at the end of my tether and just don't know what to do.

[daffy654]

Please phone the Samaritans or make an emergency appointment to see your GP. Do you have a community psychiatric nurse at all that you can phone?
Depression can be all consuming but sometimes you just need to chat to someone who understands what you feel for the suicidal thoughts to go away.Please don't do anything to harm yourself.Go and ring your GP now and come back and let me know what they say.x

[Ripley58]

I know this sounds daft even as I write it, but I'm a bit concerned about phoning my GP as I was at the surgery quite a lot in February and believe they will merely conclude I am attention seeking, which in a way I am, I suppose.

[4GS]

How do you think your friends and family will feel if you go ahead and harm yourself?

It would be all over for you, however they would feel guilty for the rest of their lives, would you want that?
Please do as daffy654 suggests and phone the Samaritans

[daffy654]

It doesn't sound daft at all. Your GP is there to help you.Ask if you can speak to the practice nurse when you ring so that you don't have to explain yourself to the receptionist. They should see you today.

[SKA]

I'm sure your GP would help you. If your lonely try joining some sort of club, I'm sure they have some in your area!

[tiggerblue10]

I have had these feelings in the past and I went to see my GP who referred me to councellor. I won't go into detail but I had a bout of depression some years ago and was prescribed Prozac. I also had suicidal thoughts as I felt useless and no good to anyone. I still have bouts of depression which will probably be with me forever.

Please contact your GP as Daffy has said. Also, as your friend is seriously ill they are depending on you for support. You are very valuable to them. Please get help immediatly.

[Ripley58]

I've just phoned and they're closed for lunch. I burst into tears and then started laughing, thinking it just so typical of my luck.

[Ice.Maiden]

Ripley - please, please have another talk with your doctor and be as frank as possible about how you're feeling. If you're dis,issed as attention seeking, seek an appointment with another doctor.
Sweetie, a good friend of mine ended it all, and a few days later, my cousin did the same. The anguish of those left behind was - and still is at times - almost unbearable, to the point of almost wanting to follow suit. There are people who can help you - starting with the Samaritans, and there are dozens of very understanding people on here, so please talk to us whenever you fee like it - xx

[daffy654]

Whilst you are waiting for the doctors to open will you please think about phoning the samaritans?

[cazzz1975]

Ripley your not being a whinger!, You have had a lot to deal with and understandable it has taken its toll on you, Dont feel like you are attention seeking, you are trying to do the right thing by getting help, you may be able to get a referral to a psychologist via the doctors.

My sister went through a depressing phase and felt much better after seeing a psychologist, never be scared to talk to people.

[Ice.Maiden]

You can have my email addy if you want it Ripley. x

[badboy78]

do not phone the samaritans or ring your gp get yourself to the hospital, you need to see a psychologist/psychiatrist as soon as possible. have you ever been diagnosed with any mental illness before? is there a history of it in your family? these are all qusetions they will ask you so go armed with the answers it'll help them help you. and believe me they will help you.

[tiggerblue10]

http://www.samaritans.org/

[godlovesatry]

I dont know much about depression only that i did once no someone with it, they said running and excersize really helped especially outside in the fresh air. do you have a dog to walk? or could you join a group for a new hobby, anything just to get you out and about a bit.

dont give up, think of this as the lowest you can get, you can only go up now, right?

[jane1098]

the samaritans crisis centre is what my mother uses.

like you she felt she had no-one. one thing lead to another and she ended up in hospital.
she has now realized that her family ARE important and that she has plenty of people around her that care so much.

please ripley, phone the relevant people. think positive.
all the best
jane x

[Ice.Maiden]

http://www.counselling.ltd.uk/index133.html

it says here that Thursday evenings are available for free counselling, Ripley.

[Ripley58]

I'm going to phone the Samaritans and chat with them until I can contact my GP

[tiggerblue10]

Let us know how you get on Ripley xxx

[4GS]

Good move, then get back on here and tell us how much better you're feeling.

[daffy654]

Best of luck Ripley.xxx Please come back and tell us what your GP says when you finally get through to them.