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Thanks Alison, you're a star! I am very lucky in that the head physio and the head occupational therapist know me very well from before and after my son died. We have a mutual admiration society going, as I know how great they are and they, having given me treatment before, know that I work harder than most patients to recover. They have in the past told me off on occasion, as I do tend to push myself too hard sometimes. But they are brilliant, those two and it is such a confort konwing they will be there to help me recover. My immune system has never fully recovered from the experimental treatment I had for my cancer in the US, so yes... I am worried about infection. Thanks for your advice on this. I can see that the spinal anaesthetic would probably be a safer option for me, but I worried that I will hear and feel movement and noises that will be hard to go through. When I have had pre-meds ahead of ops before, they have not worked as planned and I have gone into a panic before being knocked out totally .... soooooo embarrassing!! It is all to do with the fact that I am afraid of having another cardiac arrest, even though my heart is fine. It was back then too! So, amongs a waterfall of tears I kept asking the medical team please to not let me die. I felt such a fool afterwards and really felt sorry for the team in the OR. My problem was apparently caused by the anaesthetic in the first place; my blood pressure dropped to an all-time low and my heart stopped. The surgeon has been great and has put me on the 'urgent list' as I have been waiting for a very long time. He has also scheduled for me to come in for a full workup six weeks before the first op. So, hopefully I will not have any problems. Thanks for all your help Alison. I always feel better when well informed.