steve, the only thing I can say to you is, if you don't like the job you are in and feel it is too much, pack it in and move to the new part of the country you are on about, we spend a lot of time at work so you must be happy in your job, better to earn a lot less and be happy, don't knock yourself mate just be positive and change your life, only you can do it, have faith in yourself. and do it, sorry i can't advise you on the position at work, but it was obviously down to you so you have got to take the flak for that, but it is not the end of the world is it, all problems have a solution, so stay positive and look forward, good luck steve, Ray