Just someone who fits with me, I can talk to, laugh with, be myself with.
I'm not long out of a relationship and am staying in my little single bubble for a while.
I've been feeling very mislead recently, I know there was love there and we had a fantastic time but distance (not seen him for 3 weeks since I moved into my new place) has put a different slant on things and I just seem to be seeing the negative. I think that the emotions coming out are leading me to try and be angry at him and want to stay away.
I'm thankfully going over some of the final hurdles, yesterday was his brother's wedding I'd have been at if we were still together.
A week on Monday is my 30th. All plans before were made around him (well, us) and I feel a bit lost planning it and a bit weary after the last few months to want to really do much. I'm still wondering if he will get in touch or not, part of me doesn't want him too and I'm just still a bit confused.
He moved on incredibly quickly, with someone else now and because of that I don't feel I can trust or rely on him anymore even though he maybe told (or didn't tell) me somethings to prevent me from getting any more hurt.
Sorry for the ramble, just think I needed to get some of it out x