To attend or not

[KarenDot2009]

It is my Goddaughters First Holy Communion tomorrow 25th April. I am her aunt as well. She is my elder sister wee girl. I was really over the moon when she asked me to be godmother. And always babysit and helped out when she needed.

Then my sister and I bought a house together and when we went to sell things got very messy and we have not spoken for about 4 years. At family affair we do not speak and avoid contact. I haven't heard from her since then and it really hurt me the way she cut me out of her life and my goddaughters.

She has asked my older sister to do the Godmother role for the day. And I have been cut out. Most of the family are attending.

It will take me 6-7 hours to drive down to the Church and show my face for very a bad reception. I booked off work but I am starting to get second thoughts.

A car crash just waiting to happen. My sister can be very horrible, as the younger one that is always screwing things up I can just see me the way she see me. I sometimes get the impression she thinks I need her more than she would ever need me. She's very strong in her attitude and yes I would not be the most hard or strong in this world.

But I would like the wee girl know that I was there even if it is hiding in the back of the church. Will a 10 year old girl know if I were there?

Should I go or should I send a present and a card? Really that is what it boils down too!