Hi Jack, I am so sorry to hear about your loss, my husband of 40 years died last year on the 30th November, so this is my second Christmas alone, last year passed in a blur but this year like you I am finding it really hard.Your family could help you through this difficult time, I am sure they are missing their mum also, I like you don't want to be a burden on them but I am sure they don't look on it like that. Don't be on your own that day.
Your life and my life as it was, died when our partners died but I am sure they would not want us to be sad and depressed, in time you will be able to look back on all the happy times.
Regards, Louise