hi sue - The important thing here is to stay positive, don't beat yourself up about this and focus on what you want to achieve. It is important to get to and maintain your ideal weight, but equally important to feel healthy and energised and not feel hungry or deprived. The key to losing weight is to maintain a constant blood sugar level and speed up the metabolism. This will sort out your insulin levels immediately. Try a low GL eating plan, cut out refined sugar and carbs, instead have brown rice/bread/pasta, eaten with some good protein, lean chicken or fish or tofu or quinoa and the other half of your plate is veg (not potatoes) or salad. Have wholegrains for breakfast, porridge or muesli. Fruit snack mid morning. Lunch of pitta sandwich or tuna salad something healthful and then fruit snack and handful of seeds or nuts in the afternoon. Dinner as I described above. Cut out coffee,tea and alcohol and have 6-8 glasses water per day. Lots of beans,pulses, nuts and seeds, fruit and veg. I adopted this way of eating whilst studying my nutrition diploma and lost weight, as did my husband and it does make you feel better. If you need more info let me know. Amara xx