I don't know you but my heart goes out to you keep on trying to find a suitable job. But remember no matter the situation please do not pick up your hand or scratch anyone or do criminal damage again, otherwise you can eventually be arrested and convicted. I am telling you from experience I received a caution and it was for self defense, for years my partner had been abusive, it has stoped now becasue I am putting my Nichiren Shoshu Buddhism into my life and not just in my head and in this Buddhism I will not be protected if I am angry and violent, it is about cause and effect from time without beginning, karma(though, action and deed) we have a brain and have choices, we are accountable for our actions, the Lotus Sutra, the best English version is by Burton Watson, there are 28 chapters the 2nd and 16th are the heart of it, so please look the Hokkeko up, there is a branch in the UK, however at this point it is not an offically organisation in the UK, we don't have charitable status. I wish you the best in your life.
Kind Regards