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Spungle, you've written a long post but Ill try and answer some of what you wrote.
First of all, it appears that we are coming from different mind sets. Ive always been questionative/inquisitive so naturally when I became a Christian and started reading the Bible I questioned what I read (not to prove it wrong but to deeper my understanding....I had faith at this time)
It now seems to me that most religionists *DON'T* question but rely solely on faith.
//I honestly don't know of any real Christians who are living a lonely life, in the depths of drug addiction, tired and desperate, angry against people who are trying to help them, because "they know best".//
I dont know any ''real'' muslims, buddhist, mormons etc who are living like that either. Have they all got the truth as well?
Ive got no doubt that having some kind of faith can be beneficial but it doesnt make it true.
//It begs the question what so-called "evidence" you claim to have that Christianity is false//
It was more a case of I couldnt find any evidence that it was true.
//and also seems to be completely illogical to reject something simply on the basis of not being able to understand it//
I understood more than most clerics by the time I rejected it.
//Did it ever occur to you that the human intellect is fundamentally inferior to God's word?//
And whos to say what, exactly, is Gods word? The Koran? The Bhagavad gita? The Vedas?
//Or did you just decide that you knew best?//
I didnt 'decide' anything. loosing my faith was a process.
//It must have been painful, but not as painful as it has been for God to witness someone turning away from Him to trust in their own intellect and ability to guide themselves through life//
First of all, I didnt turn away from God. I said in my OP that I prayed to God That if the Bible was his word then show me. He didnt.
Secondly, if God didnt want us to use our intellect and ability then why endow us with these properties in the first place?
//Living a lie would be looking at the way your life is working out after rejecting God and concluding your own intellect trumps the Bible! Did you ever ask God for help with your unbelief?//
Yes, I asked God to help with my unbelief (or more precisely my diminishing faith) many times. In addition I DIDNT reject God. I wanted to hold on to my faith but couldnt. The way my life worked out after leaving christianity is neither here nor there. I would still have had my problems with depression anyway. In fact they would have been compounded if I'd have stayed in the faith.
//If it's your heart and mind that need help, that's exactly what repentance is- a change of mind and a change of heart//
You can have a change of mind and heart at any time in life without the guilt trip. Ive had many changes in my life because I wanted them bad enough, not because I feel guilty, or sinful, or fearing hellfire (which is a disgusting concept).
//God would grant it freely if you were to turn to Him.//
Youre under the impression that I havnt been there, I have!
//Best wishes, Nailit, the turmoil of unbelief can be replaced by peace as believing.//
Well, best wishes to yourself as well Spungle :-)
But I dont roll with belief (or unbelief) I roll with facts.
As a child I rolled with belief in Santa, but as St Paul says, I have now put childish things behind me...(1 Corinthians 13:11)