Theland. I really do think that you should stay with what you believe in. If you keep posting here, I suspect that you have 'doubts'. I do respect 'doubts', after all, science is based on doubts. I see you as a soul seeking certainty, and certainty is not available from science. You could of course accept that you have 'doubts' and yield yourself to the unknown. That takes courage, but if your original faith is correct then you will be ok; if not then you'll still be ok.