Still Missing Mum

[jambutty]

Hello everyone who was kind enough to reply to me when I posted my despair over losing Mum in early Sept. It hasn't got any better. I have a big hole inside me that I feel will never be filled again. I have gone through all the grief stages and am getting angry now that she has left me. Stupid I know because she had no choice in the matter. You know what hurts as well - the 'phone has stopped ringing now the funeral is over and people have got over the shock of her death, but I knew that would happen. Dreading Christmas and we used to love it so much. I'm still a mess.

[Schlomo78]

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[jambutty]

Hi Schlomo, just seen your last post. Sadly, I am no better at all, guess I have to get through the first year yet. My birthday and Mother's Day are coming up without her and I know they will be very hard and sadly people aren't rallying around as they did at first, but I knew this would happen, that's life. Had a bad day today and started crying in front of a lady I barely know who I bumped into when out with my dog, when she started showing me some sympathy and gave me a huge hug, which I needed. Have to keep taking one step at a time, but it is a long haul for me. Mum and I were very close, very.

[Schlomo78]

Hi Jambutty, how did you go through your b'day & Mother's Day? How lovely that lady took the time to do that with you, so many would pass by! I hope things are getting easier (i know they probably don't seem to- especially with Mother's Day shoved in your face at every turn!)

[jambutty]

Hi Schlomo. I got through them, thanks. A good friend came out with me on my birthday, so I wasn't sat at home thinking my thoughts. Mother's Day was bad, but at least I've got through my first one without her now. I know I will always miss her, but the pain isn't as raw as it was, only sometimes .... Thank you SO MUCH for coming back and posting to me xx

[Schlomo78]

You're so very welcome. Glad things have gotten a little easier for you xx