the fact you want to talk about it is good, not enough guys do that, and at least you can do this on here in an anonymous way.well done for bringing it out into the open, I know it cant be easy.anti-depressants can only help for some people some of the the time.they aren't a 'fix' in a lot of cases and sometimes you need a 'talking therapy' like cognitive behavioural therapy to get to the root of your problems.You can get referred by your GP, although the waiting list is long.without knowing how your depression started etc its hard to say, and not all GPS are clued up on emotional problems like yours.you talk as though you have a sort of 'fog' going on inside, and you're not alone.I hope you realise you can get better with the right help.ask your doctor to refer you(you have that right) and although there is a waiting list, at least it might be a light at the end of the tunnel.good luck.