Hi francesca, glad you came back, I have some experience in this problem, not me but somebody real close, you really do know you are going to go into a spiral if you carry on, if you are unhappy,bit depressed,stressed etc, you have got to try and get things in perspective before it is too late, you have admitted it is a problem, thats great, you also know that whatever is wrong in your life drink will not help you, it will mask the problem, but behind the mask are the tears of a clown, drink is a depressant, people think it gives you alift, that is short term,
the after effects are not worth the little tiny up it gives you, please seek help, go to AA, nobody will judge you, criticise or put you down, you do need to talk about it, if you want to talk to me please go to sports section and add me as a friend, I will reply to you,
also do the same with Bathsheba and Dris, they are nice people and Dris and Baths know what they are saying, maybe we can be of some help, so it is up to you if you want us to, please do. take care and look after yourself, hope to speak to you soon, Ray xx