Havent read through -sorry.
Married twice -first was the love of my life but he was killed (my 2nd knows how I feel about this) and we had 2 fab kids together -our lives have changed radically but hey almost 2yrs down the line we are gettting there but its a case of getting on with life without him than anything else.I'm lost TBH and wont ever come to terms with it but I have to live with it.
My second husband is my oldest child and I adore him -he loves me so much -we dont have kids -so its an 'us' relationship.He's so good to my kids and its been tough on him as well but he's still here.