Hope you are feeling a bit brighter this morning and have convinced Mic to accept some help within your home. You must feel so isolated Jeza, but there is help available and when its put in place, you and Mic will think why didn't we do this sooner. I felt so sad reading your thread last night, I just wanted to come and give you a big hug and sort it all out for you, and if I lived nearer to you I would. xx