JJ, I agree with Bobbs and naomi, I love to read your posts and if I lived near to you I would love you as a friend.
I know it doesn't help when people say you're not the only one who feels like this, but believe me, there of loads of people who do, myself included.
Do you have a close friend or relative you can talk with?
Phone them and have a good moan and rant, get it off your chest and try not to think too much about what's going on in the world as there's nothing much we can do about it.
Always here for you JJ. xx