Why Do I Hurt The Peoplle Thati Love

[nailedit]

Its a repeating patern

Was arrestest tuesday night for assaualting two of my neighbours who have each been friedsbfor over 20 0 yrs.

obiodsly i was drunk but got no memory. j.

lAst people on on earth id want to hurt,loce them both to bits.

 

beenn friends for years.  But now want tt just to off myself. Cant du e another jail senence adain.

wAS In cells for almost a day, had to be tackin hospita for th duratation becauase i close to fitting,

FF     sakes  

I cant do this anymore.

Due for detox in 2 weeks time, now seems a bti  poinless if im om going jail agian . anyway!

 

 

 

 

[237SJ]

^ I`m sure he is but he has two problems IMO - Something has happened in his past and he drinks to blot it out and secondly, he takes his anger about it on others when he is drunk.  He won't get over the drink problem until he has treatment/councelling for the underlying problem

[curlyfries81]

I'm sure both nailedit and jackTH are very nice chaps in real life and I am not trying to cause offence but I can't sympathise with people whose actions cause pain and suffering to others, or those who seek to excuse that behaviour, anymore than I could sympathise with a Hamas terrorist for being under the influence of religious fervour (an no, I am NOT comparing this poster to a terrorist).

I don't know his history but it appears to me that nailedit got help and came off the drink, has a plethora of support on here and yet he chose to throw all that away and go back into self-destruct mode. One has to question whether he really wants to get well.  I hope he does and I hope he gets there, without hurting anyone else along the way.  I will be once of the first to congratulate him if and when he surmounts his demons.

[barry1010]

Comparing Nailedit to Hamas? Really?

[douglas9401]

(an no, I am NOT comparing this poster to a terrorist).

[nailedit]

I feel realy ill att the mo'

but poiintllellss takaalk#

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Old_Geezer]

You may feel better after a decent night's sleep.

[nailedit]

Thanks for the thoughtful replies. I cant even remeber posting this.

Im pretty intoxicated again now but can well understand the posts on this thread that are against me.  Understanderble.

 

[curlyfries81]

I don't think anyone is against you. Condemning someone's behaviour doesn't mean you're condemning the person. 

Having said that my contribution the other night elicited the sort of responses that makes one wonder whether the "response" was coordinated and against me and not my opinion. 

I hope you manage to find inner peace.

 

[jackthehat]

It's reassuring to learn that you are still with us, nailedit.

I won't give you any advice, or platitudes, but just remember you are important to more folk than you realise.

I wish you well. 

[Lie-in King]

I'm glad to see you've posted today, nailedit & you have my continued best wishes.

[nailedit]

Just finally sobered up enough to re-read my posts over the last few days. I'm really embarrassed.

Thank so much for the supportive comments and regards the less supportive ones, I can understand those as well. I really dont like mysef that much either...

I love this site, I love the banter, love the debates, discusions etc. One thing that I don't do is come here for attention.

If I wnted attention, I could just take a stroll around my block of flats (which would take less than a minute) without any clothes on..that would do it I imagine!!

Over the years, I have recieved loads of support on here from everything from tech issues to health advice to law.

(Also gave a lot of stick to the religious 😁, always fun...)

Trying to make light of it all I guess but found myself in a bit of a pickle when Im so close to getting clean?

I sabotage everything and I dont know why...

 

Just appreciated all the supportive comments on here. Thank you!

 

[Rosie29]

You are highly regarded here Nailedit.  My continuing best wishes for your future and I sincerely hope you can benefit from your treatment.  X

[Smowball]

We all care about you Nailedit, you know we do, and I know just how kind and lovely a person you are - just from our chats etc outside of AB. Just remember - you have only failed when you stop trying, and if you are still trying then you haven't failed x

[nailedit]

Smow, weve had video calls, phone calls, texts etc away from AB over the years.  I honesstly cannot do another jail sentence.

Trying to get sober again but what is the point now?

Just been to McDonalds. Treated my son and grandaughter to a slummy Mcmeal....😁

its probably my last time as a family.

Im in court on Tuesday for a D&D charge  (not worried about that, just a fine at worst)

But it doesnt bode well. I now have another charge for assaulting 2 of my  neiiggbours.Both of which I love.

I cant do this sh* anymore.