Today I was stopped for shoplifting!

[pitstopbunny]

I went into a supermarket & helped myself to food, dog food & alcohol because I cannot cope, and, to be honest, I really cannot remember much of what I did! I am an alcoholic, I've been off sick for over 2 and a half years with depression & panic attacks. I just wanted to have a drink (no lectures please), get some proper food to eat & feed my dog.

I am not a bad person, I am well educated but 2 or so years ago I had a breakdown as a result of a lot of bad things happening in my life all at once. I am female, 38 years old and single, on medication for the depression/panic attacks/Bi-polar etc.

I was lucky the police officer just gave me an on the spot fine (which I haven't a hope of paying though), so I haven't got a criminal record, which I am eternally greatful to him for. But what do I do & where do I go from here? I feel like crying, but I am all cried out today. Why cannot I get a grip on reality & life, surely it cannot be that hard!

I do not have any family/friends etc & am very much a loner, leaving the house only when it is necessary. I am also not religious, so I cannot seek divine guidance in this one! Someone help, just point me in the right direction!

I know this is a bit unususal for me to post an unhappy thought, I am just feeling like a load of c**p!

[fine,thanks]

hi pitstop. im delighted to hear you feel a bit better, well done for getting through such a dreadful day yesterday,