Hi natalie.
I've been through this twice and had a full term stillbirth, so you have my deepest sympathy for what you are going through.
It might not seem like it now, but it's true when they say that time is a great healer. I still have a private weep on what would have been the birthdays of my babies, but time does lessen the raw grief.
What surprised me was the number of women I knew who had been through the same thing. Talking with someone who has been through the same experience really does help. Wherever you live, there will be a Miscarriage Support Line/Group - ask your GP or practice nurse.
I planted a tree for each of my babies and it does my heart good to see them growing tall and strong.
Grief is like standing on a beach with your back to the sea - you never know when a wave will wash over you.
Talk to someone, and don't make the mistake I did of shutting your partner out.
You will never forget your loss, but it will get easier. xx