I can understand your pain. I lost Harvey around November some years back - my brother was dying at the time and eventually died in February - God forgive me = my heart was breaking over Harvey and all that he meant to me - I just couldn't bear it ie - the running about the house, feeding him and walking him in other words for me - looking after him. After he died (the dog) I found I wasn't getting up out of bed until 2.00pm and I knew then I was in serious trouble. The Tuesday my brother was buried - I don't know how and when - but looked up Gumtree and found my Maxie who gave me the reason to get up again. But he was in a terrible state, bleeding from sucking at his paws and his side, vomiting everywhere and sh ng everywhere too. Very ill dog but I don't know where I got the wheretheall, beautiful dog, affectionate, - even my sister has said he is that human - we wish he could "talk" to us. Get one soon Pasta.