yeah, well I think you should feel bad. Honestly, you need to be able to handle relationships face-to-face. If someday you marry and have an argument, you can't be off in the next room firing emails at your wife, you have to do things in person, not run away and hide from emotions. It may be this whole internet has made us more accustomed to doing things remotely, but real people aren't just email addresses. You should have told her in person, however painful it was for both of you; she was entitled to that.