Please Help.

[Mrswjen]

Hi all, I really need some advice 2 years ago I stupidly opend 3 catalouges in family's names, at the time my husband was violant toward me and then was posted to Afghanistan and I was on my own with a 3 month old and a 2 year old. I was so depressed and was also suffering from a compulsive disorder. I am not a Nast person I would give any one the shirt off my back. I don't even know what possessed me to do it, I didn't do it out of mall ace or with at intent to anyone I really don't know why I did it. I have never ever been in trouble with the police and my husband is an officer in the British army, well last week my mother checked her credit file and I was found out which led to her phoning the police. They had a appointment at there house tonight with the police, my mobile started ringing and it was my mum so I answered it and it was the police man, I live in Surrey now but it happened in Essex so he asked if I could come to Essex for an voluntary interview and said did I want a solicitor to which I asked well I don't know I have never been in trouble befor he then said that if I had a solicitor it would take hours and hours and I would be kept in a police cell and if I just came in I would just be caution and I would get it sorted. He said if I told the truth all would be ok if I lied I would go to prison. I am very confused as to why he wouldn't want me to have a solicitor I am glad I am getting punished for what I have done my family don't deserve the hurt and pain that I have caused and I love them more then anything I'm just confused as I was expecting to get arrested and have a solicitor? Any help would be greatly appreciated as my husband and I split two weeks ago due to his infedelity and I am on my own in Surrey with 2 very small children thank you please don't judge me I'm really not a nasty person I was I'll xx

[Gavmacp]

Mrswjen
Something you could try for the OCD is something called Emotional Freedom Technique (EFT). Basically it is tapping on certain points on your face/body/hand. You need to fire up the feelings that cause your OCD to become worse and then tap. There is stuff on youtube that will describe how to do it. If it doesn't reduce your OCD tap for longer at different points.
It sounds like the biggest load of rubbish but it worked for me and I used it with a friend who had OCD around certain daily activities.
Much Love!!!

[Mrswjen]

No1 could hate me as much as I hate my self and my main worry is my children hence the post

[Mrswjen]

Will defenatly give it a try thank you :) xxx

[March-Hare]

I am a fan of EFT also it really does work!

[Gavmacp]

Mrswjen,
Look I think you have spent enough time in your life hating yourself! And let's be honest how has hating yourself helped you? Learn to just like yourself!! That could be a start of a wonderful journey!
I will be brief, had anxiety issues for years (over 15 years) found EFT which totally changed me. Thought I would be honest and talked openly with the people I worked with. They had not realised I had suffered as I did but more scary was how many had mental health issues that I had never realised. People I had thought were very strong!

[suzecruze]

Have a look at this site - www.daughtersofnarcissisticmothers.com/
It was a God send to me and made me realise I didn't have to put up with a narcissistic, mind game playing, pain in the arse.