Nailit, I used to use alcohol to try and lift my spirits when I was depressed, but it only works for a short while before it becomes a depressant itself. The best thing you can do is to eat some comfort food. Something fatty and full of carbohydrates is best. If you have any chocolate in the house, it would work wonders for you, believe me, I know, having been a sufferer of Bipolar 2 for many many years. A nice runny egg sandwich or a plate of chips would also be very therapeutic.
(Before anybody suggests that this food is unhealthy, I've got an A Level in Food and Nutrition and I know what I'm talking about!)
My family were appallingly ignorant and thoroughly ashamed of my depression. I've always been over-sensitive and defensive because of it. Merciless bullying at school affected me so badly, I still suffer terribly just passing another human being on the street as I think they're going to shout something abusive at me. This has actually happened to me a few times, so I got a dog to force myself to get out more and face the world.
When the 'psychs' say, "Get some exercise", they really do know what they're talking about. Even though I have to push myself, I really do feel better after a long walk.
Has your depression been properly diagnosed, Nailit? I feel I'm lucky to be Bipolar 2. I'd hate to have 'No. 1', as it's far more debilitating. Lithium didn't suit me and it literally took them years to find an antidepressant that didn't give me horrendous side-effects. I'm on Citalopram. I still have 'down' days, but on the whole, I am better than I was.
Don't give up Nailit. I know how you feel about doctors. Many of them don't understand. Many of them don't listen and seem like they're trying to get rid of you the minute you step through their door. If you're not satisfied, insist on seeing another one - you're allowed as many "second opinions" as you want. Insist that they refer you to a specialist, then you can be seen at home by someone who's not just a GP, but somebody who's trained to listen to you properly and work out a plan of action to make your life worth living again.
All I can say is "Good Luck Nailit!" I don't get on here very often any more, but I'd like to see some; any improvement the next time I see you posting. x