confused ,you have to get on with your life ,you are going to end up losing your children if you don't start getting on with it sorry if you don't want to hear this but it is true been there done it wore the t-shirt ,but got out before it got to far ,1st time i never done nothing just put it down to experience felt like it ws my fault that morning i got a phone call from my mum to say my gran had died that night was the 1st time my ex decided he was going to be a big man ,i was too in shock i tried to phone police when he had me on the kitchen table punching Sugar out of me he took my phone and smashed it off the wall and ripped house phone out the wall .....a few hours later he was fine we went to his mums and built a wardrobe together